I had this strange moment of awareness.

Awareness that almost everyone I know has a private and mysterious inner life.

Somewhere along the corridors of the mind, lies a deep dark door – a labyrinth of curiosity – but can never be broken into. What’s hidden behind the door? Secret perversions? Unquenchable thirsts? Vulnerable desires?

Do we all have secret identities? Second selves? Alter egos?

Im not talking about comic book superheroes or creative personalities like David Bowie’s Ziggy Stardust, nor the concept of multiple personality disorders like Edward Norton and Tyler Durden in Fight Club.

I’m talking about a duality in our personality. An alter ego that is hidden to the people we exist with on a day to day basis. Is it possible that two polar opposite personalities can coexist in one person or do they split in two and constantly battle? Can a person be so vastly different in moral character from one situation to the next?

I began reading “The strange case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde” a novel that examines the duality of human nature, inner struggle between good and evil, human versus animal and civilised versus barbarian. I realised that there is usually an inner struggle between one and the other – and the failure to accept this results in the creation of the duality of personality.

There are certain parts of me that are much darker than I’d like to admit – and therein lies my second self. She is not governed by any construction and makes no apologies for her darkness – she revels in it, she owns it. Is this uninhibited and hedonistic persona the true me? Or is it the kind, sweet girl next door? Or am I both of them in conflict – struggling for the contradictions to coexist?

Who are you and what do you hide?

Photo Credit Illusion

The Evolution Of Cinema

We live in an era of profound technology, technology that provides us with entertainment at our fingertips. Entertainment that needs to continually amp things up to keep us happy, like we’ve built up a tolerance to movies, each time needing deeper storylines, bigger explosions and better actors to satisfy us.

It’s not only about the movie, we’ve even grown weary of the environment that we watch it in. Fear not, they have created an environmental cinematic hierarchy for our viewing pleasure – V-Max, Gold Class, 3D … the list is endless and no doubt going to advance even further – Not only do we want to sit in our reclining extra-large chairs, but we want to sip cocktails too. Popcorn and choc-tops are not enough anymore, we need to have a three course meal while watching our overtly complex, but forgettable movie.

I’ve begun to notice that I’m growing tired of this unsatisfiable lust for bigger, badder, and better – I feel this strange desire to return to the unapologetically simple.

Once a month I make a point to go out and watch a movie alone – I usually go to a local cinema in the middle of the day. It’s like my own little adventure, where I can get lost in the world of the movie.

This month however, I stumbled across Golden Age Cinema.  I saw the words “Date Night” and “Matinee”, I even saw “Cult Classics” and “Obscure Documentaries”.

Then I saw it “The Shinning” Friday the 13th of October at 9pm!

Golden Age Cinema boasted a small screen, humble chairs, popcorn, and choc-tops – simple in the way that it should be.

Stephen King, Stanley Kubrick, and Jack Nicholson! The elements couldn’t have aligned better.

So I would wait, wait for this vintage cinema, wait for this cult classic, wait to sit back and let myself fall into a world that isn’t focused on desperately trying impressing me, but knowing that what it offers is one of a kind.

I’m not attempting to promote the cinema itself, upon further research, there are several cinemas in Sydney that offer this type of viewing experience. What I am attempting to promote however is a mild return to the simpler experiences. The taste for adventure that isn’t handed to you on a silver platter.

Photo Credit Golden Age Cinema